fired

fuck. out of work cannot tell the rents, could not tell the rents should that be. last week wednesday lunchtime i was put on garden leave immediately effective. well thats how you like to play is it? good fucking thing. I need a change of scene and this is the opportunity that has been put in my path. the money was good, some of the people were good too. shame that.
i went to see the bro this weekend. bristol is a truly great place. very hilly, lots of trees reminding one of france maybe, somewhere different from the flat fucking flat cambridge. so that was the weekend, it was good to see the bro, we went drinking friday night, did a tour of town on saturday with this really grand mountain with a tower on the top. still its great weather. its monday today. im reading lots, at the moment im reading "ham on rye" by charles bukowski and its awesome. i finished "dirt music" on the weekend in bristol lending it to robert dont know if he'll read it, probably not his sort of reading material but its there if he wants to read it! plus it made my bags a little lighter for the return journey sunday. england won the cricket beating the windies to go 2-0 up in the series. also today I played on the ps2 tony hawk 4 very addictive not as good as #3 as of yet. very addictive none-the-less.
can't burn the voice to tell the rents about the job, i fucking really wanted to when dad foned this evening but i could not bring the words to the air. im worried that i dissapoint them, thats the reason. it was the same with my degree result. I should have gotten a first but the last year I actually lived a bit and had a good time not putting one hundred percent into the chemistry coursework as i should have done. didnt get on with them either. im an independent person not liking to be told what to do. thats my problem. im too strung up getting perfection where perfection perhaps is not what is needed. im a perfectionist independent loner. so shoot me.
tonight I made spag bolognaise, it was very nice. i should make proper food more often. Im eating these oranges, they;re okay. not too special, not very juicy. what is the problem with oranges in this fucked up country? they're put into storage for too long and then they have lost all of their flavor all of their juiciness. what the fucks that all about?