fuckin

disjointed writing now possible while coherent writing of flavour and fullness without my grasp upon it currently. Is the mind such a fickle thing so as to rise back again and get back into old modes and allow the flow of creative thought onto page oncemore without fucking shit coming out too? Without talking meeting people the latter has fallen into disrepute withering away backinto the depths where it was before talking ever happened and creativity was not an option. I am finding it incredibly difficult to write an email to a friend of mine without the ringing of boredom sounding in my eyes as it is a long time since I have written a creative passage with use other than to express the numbness that I have been feeling. I need therefore to spend ages and aeons upon the improvement of something that is so shit that I cannot even be bothered to remember to you. Yet, tonight is late and I am tired. Tomorrow is another still warm day (although cold is in the very air of this night) yet unwriten and awaiting my presence, perhaps in the morning I shall be more inspired to write more creatively of more interesting semblances.

did a bit of juggling tonight, nothing much just a few practice backcrosses with 2 balls then watched nature prog on cheetas and another on Tawney owls, then some other shit. Recieved in post my app for volunteering in clinical research which I filled in and sent off sharpish. Apparently it takes at least 3 weeks before they've checked with one's doctor before one can take part in the research. Last night I watched game 2 of the ALCS upto the top of the 7th Red Socks vs. Yankees at 3-0 to the Yankees... soo tired at that stage went to the zzz's Yankees won to advance to 2-0 in this 7 game series. The Cards won their game too, they are 1-0 against the Astros. Completed the Normal Arcade Mode of Grand Tourismo 3 - the final levels are really fucking hard. Ive done 3 on Hard which is incredibly fucking almightly nasty. Advantage of completion of groups of tracks in Normal and Hard is that one gets more faster better cars. I need to become a master of the really fast cars before I can progress very far on Hard.