paralysed

sitting at home afront the computer, darting about in a rage of panic. Not able to go and get a job because I am frozen in indecision not wanting to get rejected any more. I really should go to the remaining job agencies in town and register with them. Then I should "sign on", again not really a nice thing to do, but it has to be done. I am running out of money, and there are bills to pay, food to buy and places to see. I am in the middle of filling out an application form to join the RAF, 90% there.

Eating far too many biscuits. But they make me feel better. For a short time at least.

My housemate really pisses me off, the small things (each in themselves nothing) add up and get me very annoyed. Being here all day (inside in the house) does not help. Trying to stay calm, it worked last night, did lots of PHP learning; I am up to 6^thpage. All very simple stuff at the moment.

It's the first rest day in the tour, Jens Voight borrows the yellow from LA after coming third to Rasmussen in yesterday's stage 9. Rasmussen journied ahead of everyone else for all but the first 4km (that's 167km of attacking) and finished 6 mins ahead of the peloton, and 3 ahead of Voight.